![]() I would have called him up night after night and tried to find some explanation that would make sense or ease my pain. In the past, I would have demanded answers. When did he stop loving me? Did he ever love me at all? Was he leaving me over my Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder, which I've had since age four? Was he leaving me because I made him watch Lucifer? Could I have done something that would have resulted in him not leaving me or were we doomed from the start? There were so many holes to our story that my anxious mind was desperate to fill. But at the same time, it also wasn’t enough. (Good to know! Since it was very abrupt for me!) ![]() In the harrowing days that followed I was privy to one 12-minute FaceTime where he stoically informed me that he was confident we were over and one 20-minute phone call where I learned that the decision to blow up our lives wasn’t abrupt for him. After living together for over a year, he quickly packed a backpack complete with my engagement ring and I have not seen him since. Within 20 minutes my life and my future had fallen apart. That’s why I was so confused when he robotically announced while we were watching a riveting episode of Lucifer in November 2020 that “something was missing” and he didn’t have any intention of working on it. ![]() In fact, one of the things that had made me feel so sure about choosing him as a life partner was his inherent kindness. And we didn’t have a dramatic or volatile relationship. When I first told my friends that my fiancé walked out on me on a random Tuesday night, they thought I was joking. ![]()
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